Sigh. Why are parents even an obstacle?

Ohgawd. Someone enlighten me please.

I havent really been updating much. But life has been great, fun and yet tiring at the same time. Now my decision is really very confusing. Is either I stay or I go. Was talking to beibei just now. Actually what she said was somehow true. "If I leave, then wont I feel wierd when I walk past the club room, and wont I regret leaving?" Hmm. I really dont know uh. I've got no choice luh. I scared I cant manage my time well. My gpa's really bad. And I need to really work hard this semester. My first Vb test, I attained a C. Though I didnt fail, but I wasnt contented. I really need to do really well for all my modules in order to pull up my gpa drastically. Else I can go eat shit like seriously. Lol. Or maybe regarding my decision to stay or leave, I should just let the boat sail where it takes me to uh? I really dont know. Dammit. Someone enlighten me please.

Today, Baby and Henry acted very well uh. They somehow pretended to quarrel. And I actually fell for the whole scene. =.= Initially I knew what was going on, then Baby told me later on that it turned out they really quarrelled. And I was in the middle on SACP lesson. So I rushed through my assignment as fast as I can in order to help solve their problem. But in the end, it was all just acting. Lol. Im so naive uh. Hahahaa. ROFLMAO.

And this is to Baby: Dearest baby, please stop apologising. Im not angry with you. Dont feel guilty anymore. You didnt do anything wrong luh. Let the matter rest can? Haha. I didnt even take it to heart. Chill chill. You happy, I happy. I happy, you happy, everybody happy. :D Relax uh. Life is happiness. Count from 1 to 3! Stop! Get over it okay. :D Dont think about it anymore uh. Love you. :D Furthermore, I should be the one apologising. I've let you down today and made you disappointed and upset. Im sorry I broke the promise. I smoked today. Im still trying my best. Sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooorry. :(

Our hearts beats as one.
You may not be by my side all day,
but I still feel you,
cause you're always in my heart.
One and only you.

I love you baby, Kok JiaQi!

I havent been updating my blog as I was schooling and didnt have enough time.

Im at home now, recovering from my sickness. I guess my sister passed her flu to me? But why am I so unlucky. She has cough only. While im worse, I've got fever and cough. Damn.
I feel so useless right now. Baby is away from school as she has some personal matters to attend to which I dont wish to say it here to respect her privacy. I feel im such a lousy boyf. I wish I could be there for her, but instead, i fell sick on the same day and have to rest at home. Baby, I hope you're alright! Be strong. Embrace yourself. Im here for you. Sigh.

And also, resting at home really sucks big time. Because i'll be missing out on my studies. And that means that when im back to school on Monday, i'll have to work twice the pace of the normal speed else I will never catch up. Yes, I have to go hard on myself because i've done pretty bad for my previous semester. I've cut down on computer games, or should I say i've stopped playing computer games already. And i've adjusted my sleeping time to 12am or earlier or latest by 1am. That really benefitted me alot, as i've got more energy and im able to concentrate well in class.

Ok, i'm feeling really uncomfortable right now and I need to go and rest already. Everyone take care.

BlessTheFall - God Wears Gucci

Sometimes I realise that I dont really talk to my brother. Most of the time hes in camp. He only books out on Friday. Felt some satisfaction when we played the duet version of "Hero" by Enrique Iglesias on the guitar. He plucks the guitar while I strum the guitar. I borrowed my sister's guitar while my brother plays his own guitar. Sister doesnt really uses it anyway. And it'll turn into a white elephant if its not put to good use. I've decided not to buy a guitar because I dont think i'll be playing that often. Just for leisure only. Ok, time to withdraw to bed. Really tired now.

I just want to play my guitar now.